A sad situation

Current mood:crushed

When you put everything you have...your heart and soul into something/someone and you trust them to guard it and keep it whole and they turn around and hand it back to you in a million little pieces what are you supposed to do?

How do you react to that? 

How do you pick up and move forward?

How do you ever trust again? 

Love again??? 

The sad thing is this person that has destroyed everything for you is usually the person you love the most and even though this horrible thing has happened its still there. Your love for them is still there. You still want them and sadly you still need them... Where do you go from there????


I care too much and that usually makes me vulnerable. Just once I wish I cauld find that one person that I can give my heart and know that with out a doubt it is safe. Does such a person exisit??? Where do i find them and how do i keep them??? How do I make it better? How do I make the hurt go away?????

Just an update

Current mood:okay

OK i just felt like writing so bare with me. Things have been going great for the most part. Pookie and I are doing really well and that makes me very happy.

We just got back from a much needed vacation. We left  here on the 4th and got into San Antonio, TX on the 5th. After a much needed rest we headed down to the river walk in down town. OMG it was beautiful. Even the kids loved it. We to a boat ride and saw some really cool things. I really recommend it.

 The 6th we had a wedding and then we headed up to Dallas where we stayed with my sister and brother in law. It was cool. On the 8th we headed up to Oklahoma for a few days. It is very pretty there but ummm lets just say they are a little slow there. But i got to see my family and that was great. On the 12th we headed back to Dallas where we stuck around for my brother in law Edwards birthday. Then on that Saturday night we headed back. It was fun and gave us some family time together and that's whats important.

So lately i have been finding a lot of old friends on here. I just want to say that it has been really cool to be able to touch base with some of you. I know times have passed but you should never let true friendships die. That is something I have learned just recently. I have this one best friend that shall remain nameless so i don't embarrass her. (you know who you are) :) Well we just started hanging out again after not really having anything to do with each other for a little over 2 years. Neither of us can say why we stopped hanging out ......just life i guess. But now we have started seeing each other almost everyday i realize that I really missed her. ALOT. And now I don't know what I would do with out her. 

So the whole point is don't let things , especially things you care about slip away. You may not be as lucky as I have to get it back. 

OK so now that i have babbled on and probably bored you all i am going to stop writing. LOl feeling just a little sentimental lately.... can you tell.!!!

I wanna talk

Ok so i guess i should update anyone who cares about whats been happening in my life lately.(isn't that what these things are for). Ok so i started a new job.i work for a company called GC Services. I am a Apple Customer Service Rep. I think I am gonna really like it although I have only been there a week. Soill let you know in about a month how that goes. Moving on, my son is leaving me for the summer. Yeah I know crazy huh. He is flying to Texas to stay with his auntie Brandie for 6 or 7 week. (or until he decides he wants to come home.) I am a little worried but i guess you have to let go sometime right. Anyways he will have a blast so thats good. As for Katie she just keeps getting meaner and meaner. ok well i guess that s about it for now. All you punks better start commenting!! :)