Have you ever heard the expression, "bend until you break"?
I often wonder when that breaking point is. How much is too much?
Sometimes everything piles on and you don't really know if it's ever going to stop. You ask, "Lord, how much more will you ask me to endure?" and your met with silence. What is one to do? How are you supposed to lean and bend when you feel like just one more fraction of an inch will be the last straw?
In your heart you know the answer to that question. You know that satan in playing on your weaknesses. You know that he takes satisfaction in your sorrow and loneliness. You know that you are letting him win. You KNOW!!!
What you don't know is how to pull yourself up out of darkness when you have days that feel like a dark cloud is looming over you. You don't know how to over come that. In the back of your mind you hear that still small voice saying "praise Me anyways!!!" and you do! You shout Praise to Him and you emerge yourself in Him but somehow you fall short. Then what?
I want to be the strong oak tree. The one that is known for it's ability to be pushed, shoved, and bent but never breaks. The one that, after the storm is over, will stand up straight again and flourish.
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I want to be the oak tree too! Keep loving and writing. Your family looks delightful!
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ReplyDeletesometimes i wonder if God ever asks the same question of me, "How much more will you ask me to endure?"